So people wished me, ah most of them! Phone kept buzzing the whole day with SMS's from all my friends. They called me, asked me so what's your wish on your birthday dude! What do you want?..What I want, I want to be with those who are important me and love me, make me feel special, my friends, my family. Everyone called up and said “enjoy with your friend's...have a blast!"...Hello??? “enjoy with your friends"??... Aren't you supposed to be my friend with whom I'm supposed to enjoy...Did I ask a lot from my life? I didn't want a grand party, a huge celebration, just some relaxing time with my friends. Is that too much to ask for? May be it is...I still remember my birthday parties during my school days...Life isn’t unfair...It's actually fair...It gave me happiness so it has every right to snatch them from me and leave me all alone to celebrate a lonely birthday! But still I thank you god for all I have and all I don't!
It’s hard to satisfy
When you have so many reasons to cry
It’s hard to be afraid
When your emotions are raped
It’s hard to feel the pain
When you lose all what you gain
It’s hard to see the light
When you have lost all your pride
It’s hard to put a smile
When your happiness is so fragile
It’s hard to sleep at night
When there’s nothing in your life that’s right
It’s hard to be alive
When you hardly have a life
Why is life like this? Yesterday when I came out of my office, instead of taking a cycle rickshaw to my room where I stay alone, I started walking. It was 7 PM of a cold Delhi evening, so was filling the cool breeze on my face, hitting me hard, trying to change my expression. But it failed and I remained sad. Sad for the very existence of myself. Sad for the kind of life I was living. Sad for so many things. I tried to throw away these feelings in air and lit up a cigarette. While the smoke filled the air around me, so many thoughts, some of them weird enough to make me laugh, started filling me from inside. I was still walking, along the side of the road with so many cars, walking by a beautiful park where so many people relaxing in the park. I was afraid to keep my head straight, afraid to see people happy and joyful. I was mostly walking with my head down. Am I the only one left alone in this city? Why’s life like this? People I want close to me are so far away from me.I always wanted to be surrounded by my friends, but they are not there for me. There are so many friends whom I have not even see for may be 8-9 years. There are friends with whom I always want to be with. Is this the life I always wanted? Is this the life for which I have sacrificed so many things? Is this the kind of life for which I am so far away from my family? Why is it that what you want you hardly get and what you get is not exactly what you want. I always try to find things to do to keep myself away from these thoughts but I could never succeed. I love to shop so I shop a lot. I’m a gadget freak and I almost spend my entire salary and keep buying things. All this just to keep myself happy, but still I'm not. This is my life and this is my story. Now things are always like this.Will they ever change?Sudddenly one thing said by one of my colleague started resounding in my head “Kabhi to aisa ho ki yeh darwaza khule aur andar kuch alag ho”...Kash kabhi aisa ho.So I kept walking with this hope...Someday…
Mera Jahan
A Little Sweet,
A Little Sour
A Little Close Not Too Far
All I Need, All I Need
All I Need Is To Be Free
Chhoo Loon Main
Itna Kareeb
Chal Padun
To Kitne Door
A Little Sweet, A Little Sour…
Chhoo Loon Main Itna Kareeb
Chal Padun To Kitne Door
Sapna Ka Buna Sweater Sa Warm
Safed Baadalon Ke Paar
Mera Jahan
Let Me In Without A Shout
Let Me In I Have A Doubt
Let Me In Without A Shout
Let Me In I Have A Doubt
There Are More,Many More
Many Many Many More Like Me
Akela Nahin Main
Khuli Aankhon Se Neend Mein Chalta
Girta Zyada Kam Sambhalta
Akela Nahin Main
Khuli Aankhon Se Neend Mein Chalta
Girta Zyada Kam Sambhalta
Phir Bhi Na Koi Shaq Na Subha
Nikalega Phir Se Sooraj Jo Dooba
Hairat Ho Sabko Aisa
Ajooba Hai Mera Jahan
Open Eyed How I Run
How I Run To The Other Side
Open Eyed How I Run
How I Run To The Other Side
Then I Glide Like A Bird
I Just Want To Be
Udne Ko Sau Pankh Diye Hai
Chadne Ko Khula Aasmaan
Udne Ko Sau Pankh Diye Hai
Chadne Ko Khula Aasmaan
Mudne Ko Hai Karwat Karwat
Aur Badhne Ko Mera Jahan
Bachpan Ke Din Chaar
Na Aayenge Baar Baar
Jee Le Jee Le Mere Yaar
Jeib Khaali To Udhaar
Jee Zindagi
(From the movie ' Tare Zameen Par' )
I have not slept for many days,seems like many years.
I want to sleep,resting my head on the shoulders of life,
trying to hear it's silence,
trying to release my soul from all the bindings.
But I lost my silence in the noise of this world.
Everyone is running.Even I'm.But where are we reaching?
I'm not happy,then what's the point.
We have everything but still not satisfied,not happy.
Money can't buy you peace,
can't buy you love,
can't buy you happiness.
People have become so cold.
Internet lets you know of anyone anywhere in the world,
you can see what your friends staying far far away is doing,
can talk with them,
but you don't know who's your neighbor.Isn't it strange?
But this is the new world we are building,
the wireless world,
where your mobile is connecting
from two extreme ends of the world,
but the wires connecting the heart's of the people is missing
and I'm building it,
contributing to building a society of emotionless,
materialistic people.
I feel ashamed to do that,
but I don't seem to find a way to stop myself.
Is the world really getting smaller?Or is it expanding,
expanding so fast that it fears it'll burst.
Ye kaisi paheli hai,kyun ise suljha nahi pa raha hun main
Dil ko tu jitna bhi cheer le,par dekh ei dard fir bhi muskura raha hun main.
Nehi pata rasta kahan hai,kya pata manzil kahan hai
Ye mera pagalpan hai ya tere die gam ka nasha hai.
Maut ka dar to nahi tha yar,par ab ye zindagi hi jakar rahi hai
Sayad teri bhi koi majburi hogi,sayad tub hi tarap rahi hai hai.
Teri yaad mujhe abhi bhi rulati hai,tarpati hai
Teri ankhon ka nasha,hasi ki kashish,kyun mujhe paas bulati hai.
Janta hun kasoor yeh tera nehi, par dosh bhi main aab kise dun
Tere liye jo sambhale rakhi thi,ab ye zindagi main kise dun.
Aanson bhi sukh gae,rona bhi nahi aata
Dard itna zyada hai ki,dard ka ehsaas hi nahi hota.
Yaad hai barsat ki woh sham,Adhe tum bheeg rahe the aur adhe hum
Sawan ab bhi barasti hai mere chat pe, par ab kitne duur hain hum.
Jab bhi chaha dam torna,tere chehre ne mujhe roka
Na maut ne sath diya,na zindagi ko main de paya dhoka.
Yadoon ke un bhikre pannon ko,ura lata hai ye pawan ka jhoka
Ehsaas hai tere sath ka,tu sach main thi ya tha koi dhoka
Woh beete din bhul na payenge,kitne kareeb the hum
Par ab kitne duur ho tum,aur kitne majboor hain hum.
Yeh raat jab hoti hai,jab andhera chata hai
Yeh soonapan tumhari yaad le ati hai.
Tumhare sath bitaye wo do haseen pal,who meethi baatein
Saath le aati hai,yeh tanha raatein.
Mat mila karo mujhse,akhir tumhe bhul jana hai
Bus apni yaadein de do,akhir inhike sahare hi to jeena hai.
pyar karne ki tumhe saza bahut humko mili
Par jindagi jine ki koi to wajah mili.
Tu mili nahi mujhe to kaise ji payunga?
Pata nahi gum yeh judai ka kaise sah payunga
Yeh tanhai aur tum sath kyun baste ho
Mere dil ke karib ho kar bhi, kyun itne duur rahte ho?
