It’s hard to satisfy
When you have so many reasons to cry
It’s hard to be afraid
When your emotions are raped
It’s hard to feel the pain
When you lose all what you gain
It’s hard to see the light
When you have lost all your pride
It’s hard to put a smile
When your happiness is so fragile
It’s hard to sleep at night
When there’s nothing in your life that’s right
It’s hard to be alive
When you hardly have a life
Why is life like this? Yesterday when I came out of my office, instead of taking a cycle rickshaw to my room where I stay alone, I started walking. It was 7 PM of a cold Delhi evening, so was filling the cool breeze on my face, hitting me hard, trying to change my expression. But it failed and I remained sad. Sad for the very existence of myself. Sad for the kind of life I was living. Sad for so many things. I tried to throw away these feelings in air and lit up a cigarette. While the smoke filled the air around me, so many thoughts, some of them weird enough to make me laugh, started filling me from inside. I was still walking, along the side of the road with so many cars, walking by a beautiful park where so many people relaxing in the park. I was afraid to keep my head straight, afraid to see people happy and joyful. I was mostly walking with my head down. Am I the only one left alone in this city? Why’s life like this? People I want close to me are so far away from me.I always wanted to be surrounded by my friends, but they are not there for me. There are so many friends whom I have not even see for may be 8-9 years. There are friends with whom I always want to be with. Is this the life I always wanted? Is this the life for which I have sacrificed so many things? Is this the kind of life for which I am so far away from my family? Why is it that what you want you hardly get and what you get is not exactly what you want. I always try to find things to do to keep myself away from these thoughts but I could never succeed. I love to shop so I shop a lot. I’m a gadget freak and I almost spend my entire salary and keep buying things. All this just to keep myself happy, but still I'm not. This is my life and this is my story. Now things are always like this.Will they ever change?Sudddenly one thing said by one of my colleague started resounding in my head “Kabhi to aisa ho ki yeh darwaza khule aur andar kuch alag ho”...Kash kabhi aisa ho.So I kept walking with this hope...Someday…
Mera Jahan
A Little Sweet,
A Little Sour
A Little Close Not Too Far
All I Need, All I Need
All I Need Is To Be Free
Chhoo Loon Main
Itna Kareeb
Chal Padun
To Kitne Door
A Little Sweet, A Little Sour…
Chhoo Loon Main Itna Kareeb
Chal Padun To Kitne Door
Sapna Ka Buna Sweater Sa Warm
Safed Baadalon Ke Paar
Mera Jahan
Let Me In Without A Shout
Let Me In I Have A Doubt
Let Me In Without A Shout
Let Me In I Have A Doubt
There Are More,Many More
Many Many Many More Like Me
Akela Nahin Main
Khuli Aankhon Se Neend Mein Chalta
Girta Zyada Kam Sambhalta
Akela Nahin Main
Khuli Aankhon Se Neend Mein Chalta
Girta Zyada Kam Sambhalta
Phir Bhi Na Koi Shaq Na Subha
Nikalega Phir Se Sooraj Jo Dooba
Hairat Ho Sabko Aisa
Ajooba Hai Mera Jahan
Open Eyed How I Run
How I Run To The Other Side
Open Eyed How I Run
How I Run To The Other Side
Then I Glide Like A Bird
I Just Want To Be
Udne Ko Sau Pankh Diye Hai
Chadne Ko Khula Aasmaan
Udne Ko Sau Pankh Diye Hai
Chadne Ko Khula Aasmaan
Mudne Ko Hai Karwat Karwat
Aur Badhne Ko Mera Jahan
Bachpan Ke Din Chaar
Na Aayenge Baar Baar
Jee Le Jee Le Mere Yaar
Jeib Khaali To Udhaar
Jee Zindagi
(From the movie ' Tare Zameen Par' )
