A Lonely Birthday !

So people wished me, ah most of them! Phone kept buzzing the whole day with SMS's from all my friends. They called me, asked me so what's your wish on your birthday dude! What do you want?..What I want, I want to be with those who are important me and love me, make me feel special, my friends, my family. Everyone called up and said “enjoy with your friend's...have a blast!"...Hello??? “enjoy with your friends"??... Aren't you supposed to be my friend with whom I'm supposed to enjoy...Did I ask a lot from my life? I didn't want a grand party, a huge celebration, just some relaxing time with my friends. Is that too much to ask for? May be it is...I still remember my birthday parties during my school days...Life isn’t unfair...It's actually fair...It gave me happiness so it has every right to snatch them from me and leave me all alone to celebrate a lonely birthday! But still I thank you god for all I have and all I don't!

Time won't let me go

Where did I messed up the things?Did I misstep so that my life's like this now?Why is loneliness and tears only stay with me every night?Why can't I beat this sadness?Does anyone care to think why it's like this?I have things money can buy,at least lots of them which I always wanted to have,but does that make me happy?Does that make me complete?Is this the life I wanted?There were days in my life when people used to feel sad if I wasn't around.I used be the source of laughter for my friends.There were days when we used to take our bicycles and roam around the city,not knowing where exactly to go,not knowing what to do.But they are lost somewhere in time.But I can't escape my fate,I can't go as time won't let me go.I wish I could sit somewhere with my legs crossed,imprison myself in a dark room,seizing my thoughts,stopping myself from thinking what went wrong,who did it,but life won't set me free.I think sleep is my only savior.I feel disgusted about my life,but I have to sleep to see a new tomorrow through this hazel eyes,hoping the sun will shine tomorrow and brighten my life.