Dard

Ye kaisi paheli hai,kyun ise suljha nahi pa raha hun main
Dil ko tu jitna bhi cheer le,par dekh ei dard fir bhi muskura raha hun main.

Nehi pata rasta kahan hai,kya pata manzil kahan hai
Ye mera pagalpan hai ya tere die gam ka nasha hai.

Maut ka dar to nahi tha yar,par ab ye zindagi hi jakar rahi hai
Sayad teri bhi koi majburi hogi,sayad tub hi tarap rahi hai hai.

Teri yaad mujhe abhi bhi rulati hai,tarpati hai
Teri ankhon ka nasha,hasi ki kashish,kyun mujhe paas bulati hai.

Janta hun kasoor yeh tera nehi, par dosh bhi main aab kise dun
Tere liye jo sambhale rakhi thi,ab ye zindagi main kise dun.

Aanson bhi sukh gae,rona bhi nahi aata
Dard itna zyada hai ki,dard ka ehsaas hi nahi hota.

Yaad hai barsat ki woh sham,Adhe tum bheeg rahe the aur adhe hum
Sawan ab bhi barasti hai mere chat pe, par ab kitne duur hain hum.

Jab bhi chaha dam torna,tere chehre ne mujhe roka
Na maut ne sath diya,na zindagi ko main de paya dhoka.

Yadoon ke un bhikre pannon ko,ura lata hai ye pawan ka jhoka
Ehsaas hai tere sath ka,tu sach main thi ya tha koi dhoka

Woh beete din bhul na payenge,kitne kareeb the hum
Par ab kitne duur ho tum,aur kitne majboor hain hum.

Yaad!!

Yeh akelapan,yeh tanhai,kyun mujhe nahi chorti
Tune to sath chor diya,yeh dard hi to hai jo apna wada nahi torti.

Yeh bheegi aankhein,inme mein kabhi sapne the
Who tut gaye,unka sath chut gaya jo kabhi apne the.

Yeh tanhai,uff yeh tanhai,kyun dil ko cheer jaati hai
Par tu jab nahi hai hoti hai,yehi to hai jo sath nibhati hai.

Dil mein ab tu nahi,bus ek sannatapan hai
Yeh kaisi kashish,yeh kaisa paagalpan hai.

Dil jitna bhi pukare tumhe,janta hun tum wapas nahi aogi.
Mujhe awaz na dena,main murunga nahi,warna tum mujhe bhul na paogi.

Subah se sham,sham se fir subah ho jayegi
Tu yaad to ayegi,pur un yadon ke sahare,ye zindagi bhi kat jayegi.

Love!

It is….(a pause)..??..This is the way I reacted when my friend, my roomie TD asked me a question during one of our discussion sessions(??) at night(We once even had a discussion session which was so long that we slept @ 4 in the morning and had to get up @ 5 to get ready for the training session),a very simple question to ask but very difficult to answer “What is love” and added to this he asked one more ”How do u know you are in love, when do u know its love?”..I still think about his stupid questions...How does anyone explain what’s love? When do you know you r in love? I wish answers to these questions were found in google.com…I don’t know what exactly love is..I just know it’s wonderful, fantastic, special...How do I know?...I just know and u just know when u r in...Why do I miss her? Why do I think I should have been with her, close to her? Why does it feel so good just to hear her voice? Why I just wait (rather wait desperately) to get a chance to see her? Why? I don’t know….
Why is everything about her so beautiful? Why is everything about her so special? Why do I feel peaceful, so wonderful when I’m near her? Why the answer to my every prayer is she? Why? I don’t know…
I believe love is a gift, the second most wonderful gift god has gifted to me (First being my parents)...Its so wonderful loving someone, thinking about her, caring about her...It really is..”why should I?”,” Why do I?”…..Love is the reason, the answer to all such questions.
It feels so special when someone remembers every little thing u said, when someone cares about u so much, when someone reminds u of every important thing in ur life , however small it may be(taking medicine at right time being one of them!)...U know it’s special...U just know it...

Those who love you will hurt u more but when you are sad, when you cry, they will always be there, standing next to you, to stop every single drop of tear falling from your eyes, they will do anything for that..

Appreciate it , respect it..............

Yeh Tanhai aur Tum

Yeh raat jab hoti hai,jab andhera chata hai

Yeh soonapan tumhari yaad le ati hai.

Tumhare sath bitaye wo do haseen pal,who meethi baatein

Saath le aati hai,yeh tanha raatein.

Mat mila karo mujhse,akhir tumhe bhul jana hai

Bus apni yaadein de do,akhir inhike sahare hi to jeena hai.

pyar karne ki tumhe saza bahut humko mili

Par jindagi jine ki koi to wajah mili.

Tu mili nahi mujhe to kaise ji payunga?

Pata nahi gum yeh judai ka kaise sah payunga

Yeh tanhai aur tum sath kyun baste ho

Mere dil ke karib ho kar bhi, kyun itne duur rahte ho?

Noise of Silence

You think silence is really silent? When I’m all alone in my room, I generally prefer lying on the bed with the lights switched off, the windows open, with the fresh air coming in…feels wonderful na?such soothing, peaceful moment,right?but…have u ever been able to lay just like that keeping your mind switched off..lights will bring darkness, darkness in the room, in ur mind...my mind starts thinking, about things I felt bad about, things that hurt me..I try to stop it but I can’t...I feel so helpless…I feel like running away but from whom and to where? I feel like talking to someone but with whom, who will understand, share, make me feel better...There is noone, noone left for me...Its really strange, I tried to have a silent peaceful moment but I’m helpless,restless..This screaming voice in my head is making me deaf, this bright light of darkness in my life is making me blind,paralysed…So u still think that the noise on the roads, of the loud rock music played at your neighbors flat is more painful that the noise of silence, the noise of loneliness…Think again!!

Country Roads..Take Me Home..

I was very tired…so had a nice tight sleep..suddenly a streak of bright light hit me straight on my face..something’s strange..where is my bed, my PC, Swamiji’s photo on the wall, just next to the cuckoo wall clock didi gifted to me..its not my room..i’m not at my home..Ah! So far away…I miss my home, home sweet home..

Why is life like this...sometimes I really feel that you don’t want what you get and you don’t get what u want...nostalgic hun?Yes I am but cant help it..

Almost heaven, west virginia
Blue ridge mountains
Shenandoah river -
Life is old there
Older than the trees
Younger than the mountains
Growin’ like a breeze

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

All my memories gathered ¡®round her
Miner’s lady, stranger to blue water
Dark and dusty, painted on the sky
Misty taste of moonshine
Teardrops in my eye

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

I hear her voice
In the mornin’ hour she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
And drivin’ down the road I get a feelin’
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads

Country roads, take me home
To the place I belong
West virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, country roads
Take me home, now country roads
Take me home, now country roads